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Two Squealing Kids Yelling, “Mommy! Mommy! Mommy!”

May 13, 2013 · by · in A Day in a Life

All of the anger came back. I was full of piss and vinegar before I let the love take over. I was happy to pick up my kids, and angry because of the irony of the weekend. This weekend last year was the weekend I had to turn over custody to Donkey. It rushed me […]

Rock Boy

Intention and Action are not always the same

April 15, 2013 · by · in A Day in a Life

“How many days is two months?” asked my daughter. “60 days,” I answered. “60 days!” she screamed, jumping up and down and spinning in circles. “I get to stay with you for 60 days?!” “That’s right,” I replied, “Me and you and your brother, together this summer.” “Can we go swimming?” she asked. Though I’m […]

Operation Orlando

April 8, 2013 · by · in Court

There’s nothing like hearing about a hearing an hour and a half before it begins. No, really, there is nothing like it. Fuck you, goddammit, and holy shit all spewed forth in a matter of seconds. Then I went through a few oh-my-gawds, then a few more holy-shits, and then I took a breath and […]

Another lesson in the Learned book

January 10, 2013 · by · in A Day in a Life

You know those scenes in movies? The ones where the character falls to their knees in the middle of a dark, empty street, in the middle of a rain storm, with thunder clapping and lightening striking, and they throw up their arms, look into the dark abyss above and scream from the bottom of their […]

Forces of evil in a bozo nightmare

January 9, 2013 · by · in Custody

I feel horrible. I can’t get my head wrapped around the nonsense. I do feel like I failed, like as soon as he said he would be flexible with his plans, I should have jumped, and jumped hard, to get my weekend. But I didn’t. Soy un perdedor. I’m not over his threat to take me […]

Skypes and visits

January 9, 2013 · by · in Custody

Last Thursday Donkey didn’t bring the kids to Skype. They were a complete no-show. Instead of texting him, again, and asking if he was planning on skyping, I used the time to put together a calendar of visits for the year. Then I went to bed, at 8:00. I fell asleep as I walked to […]

Don’t get pissey, or do, either way

December 31, 2012 · by · in Custody

I had it in my mind to send Donkey the January email today. The email with my request to have the kids for a weekend. I hadn’t while the kids were here to keep my focus on this visit. I was living in our moments. They went home last night. Donkey beat me to it. […]

Shift Your Perspective

December 3, 2012 · by · in Abuse, Final Judgement

“It’s ok if you turn in your résumé.” She said it so softly she wasn’t sure she said it out loud. She sat back in her car aware suddenly of the sheer number of vehicles exiting the interstate. He had asked if he could speak to her. Her heart retreated. He had asked if he […]

Deciding December

November 29, 2012 · by · in Custody

Donkey started the conversation this time. I guessed there was a catch. I kept it simple. He offered a longer visit, but I knew going to Miami for New Years was what he wanted and that worked for me. I don’t have any paid time off until 2 January and I’m going to take one […]

I gave consent

November 20, 2012 · by · in A Day in a Life

I gave consent to what I face. I can feel it. In the grandeur of foul-mouthed fury that could only have come from me, I gave consent to what I face: fucking goddamn bullshit life without my children. The revelation from The Poet of Tolstoy Park revisited during a fret with sleeplessness: I must give my consent to what I face. Hell no, I will […]

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